Tired

July 3rd, 2026

I’ve been feeling tired and exhausted lately.

In a way, it seems counter-intuitive; for I am eating extremely hearty meals.. From fruit salads as snack to wholesome and nutritious food for main meals.and of course the vegetable smoothies. All ingredients that are supposed to keep me well and well energized.

However, it is still on deck, given that I have skipped doses. And the changes in chemistry and physiology of my body are causing me to feel this way.

At the very least and best, I am extremely conscious and aware of my own self, being and surroundings.

What’s the issue? There is no issue.

I am leading a long life and gaining more strength, vitality and vigour along the way. That is the big picture.

For having strength, vitality and vigour is of utmost importance. Ofcourse, along with happiness, joy and Bliss.

There is comfort in knowing, that, in time, I am to be leading a life of adventure and great times.

These are just temporary times that I ought to stay put and take care of myself to the greatest extent possible… Through great nutrition and keeping my environment neat, organized, clean and tidy.

Ofcourse, this very aspect of keeping my environment in great shape could be the issue… For I am waking up feeling completely exhausted and feel like I can’t even keep up with the basics of upkeep.

It is known to me, at the same time, that as time goes on and I heal from the catastrophic situation that I have found myself in, that doing such chores will come with complete ease and even enjoyment.

The lack of a social life and socializing is also having a negative impact on me. Yet, at the same time, I see myself as too drained to be able to “get out there” and to build and foster relationships.

There’s not even much that I am even capable of doing at this point in time, even if I wanted to.

My legs are fatigued, my back aches.

And I find myself feeling bored. And sleepy.

My mind is quiet, and I am at peace… Except for the little frustration that I’m dealing with in regards to my sedentary lifestyle.

On the bright side, I’ve got amazing meals to look forward to.

But, I would like a much cleaner space.

What am I to do?

– Absolutely Nothing.

What I am doing is the right thing.. Why?
Because I would give my everything to live a clean and natural life, free from any kind of intoxicants and drugs.

So… This is very temporary as I recuperate and journey towards a life being well lived and enjoyed.

And as I’ve been having recurring thoughts as I look through and read my e-journal entries, of sharing these on my blog.

Should I be doing that? Do I even have the capability of doing that?

Ok, I’ll tell you what. If I find myself capable, and I muster up whatever energy and resources are needed to just copy-and-paste these entries into my blog, I will… And I’ll schedule them to be published daily.