Doing with Time…

June 13, 2026

I was not approved for 3 attempts in getting a car.

It is about being quiet now.

Perhaps about the plan of staying quiet for 2 years.

As originally planned including the insight of having to spend a bunch of time in bed and ordering everything I need online. Like groceries.

The plan had been to consistently cook. And eat fruit salads and drink vegetable smoothies.

I’m doing that.

The plan to keep my apartment neat, clean, organized and tidy, I’m getting around to that.

The plan is to create lots and lots of YouTube videos. I’m waiting on my Dell laptop to do that.

How else to spend my time?

I could play the piano, guitar, drum and draw. If only I would muster up whatever resources are needed for that to happen.

For now, I’m just contemplating getting up and making myself a fruit salad, and also wondering what it is that I am to cook tomorrow.

I would love to give myself something to do and that is especially and specifically creating YouTube videos. But it seems a must that I get my laptop first.

Gotta wait about a week-10 days till I even place the order again, and then wait a while longer till it gets delivered.

I must go through this waiting period because this time, the YouTube content is on a whole other level, and I Am banking on the faculty that my videos are going viral.

What do I do until then?

So much time is available to me and that is such an awesome thing. That I have sooo much time!

How do I make the most of it?

I love meditating… I could meditate a whole lot more.

I’m lazy about a whole lot of things. Like playing music and drawing. I have fun when I do it a little bit but sticking to it is such a huge issue.

Ideally I would have a teacher. I would love to have a teacher really and actually guide me through the whole process.

It’s just that reading and implementing and that whole ordeal is so cumbersome for me.

Ideally speaking. As the resources pile up that I feel comfortable and very able to gain teachers.. From drawing to playing music that I would jump on that opportunity instantly.

But this whole ordeal of using my brain and bodily faculties to assimilate notes and play them is, I think, at this point, beyond my reason of enjoyment.

I do, however, really really really enjoy making YouTube videos and even doing the slight edits that need be done before I upload.

Like making the thumbnail, I haven’t enjoyed that process, I don’t think, much..

But shooting the video and speaking my mind and heart out is exhilarating. And the energy I get from it is just purely awesome and joyful.