July 29, 2026
I can’t help but dwell a little bit on the past. A time when I lived in Dubai and I was a member of a day club. The club had a pool that was just perfect, surrounded by palm trees and springs. I could go, lay there and smoke cigarettes. I could eat by the pool and sip on a beer. A club that I didn’t take advantage of.
And all the interactions I had and the opportunities. Such a magnificent time in my life…
Yet, it seems to have been wasted. Wasted because I was half asleep. At least in comparison to right now and my awareness and maturity of right now, then, I was sleeping.
And to think with all the maturity and self awareness that I have gained, and me being the best I have ever been, in my body and mind, yet there’s no people and I feel, no opportunities. None that I can see anyway.
I’ve had a dull day, beginning with the massive amount of energy the officer I have to meet with once a year regarding me being on the sex offenders list “Christopher’s Law” had come up to my door. He had been trying numerous times to reach me including leaving his business card at the door twice beforehand already. He wants me to email him my legal name change certificate.
Anyway, it was a tense interaction as I brought up the fact that I had already provided him with it when I came into his office. And also that I am unwilling to oblige with this law given that a Hamilton judge recently came to the verdict that Christopher’s law is unconstitutional. I told him that dealing with it is humiliating and that I don’t need nor want this negative force in my life whatsoever.
I told him that I don’t like him. He told me that he’s my friend and I exclaimed that he is not.
I ended up emailing him the certificate as he threatened me with a warrant if I don’t.
But anyway, I need to know my rights at this point given that I don’t want anything to do with these people. Things in my life are awesome except for this particular very negative factor. And I have been getting rid of anything negative in my life and this aught to not be any different.
Also, my mom had recently been cold to me on the phone. When I point that out to her she gets very defensive and continues to treat me with an ill manner.
Today, she mentions that they have no intent on coming back on their scheduled flight on 20th of August and that I am no longer a priority in their lives and hence will be postponing their flight back for two month, or indefinitely.
This really hurt me, and I haven’t been the same since the phone call.
I’ve been trying to recuperate after this jab to the heart.
It’s a quiet evening, and there is not much of any emotion at this point. I’m in a completely neutral and dull state. I’m excited for tomorrow, though, when I’ll wake up fresh and to having my cup of coffee as I relax on the couch before I do some working out and then probably heading out to the grocery store to do some shopping for tomorrow’s cooked meal.