It’s crazy and disappointing how lazy I get sometimes…
But I know better than to be hard on myself.
There are days when, in surfing terms, there are waves and I catch it.
And others where it’s just “off”.
Sometimes, working out and cooking and getting things done comes very easily. Other days, I just can’t get myself off the couch.
It is understandable, because my body is still going through a lot. And I know there will come a time when I am more consistent with productivity.
Like today, other than having a fight with my brother, I did sit in the yard and enjoyed it much. But I haven’t done anything “productive”. Even though I do have an obligation with an IPL treatment that was due yesterday.
BUT, yesterday, I got up early and ended up feeling tired by noon, in addition to having a heated interaction with a crazy christian on Facebook. It had been a few days of ongoing arguments and she just went too far yesterday.. so it ended up affecting me. So what I did was take the bus to McDonald’s. Before I ate I got an iced coffee and sat in their patio smoking cigarettes and smoking my pipe.
Things slowly started to get better and better. My energy and mood, I mean. For I was in a mental fog and not in sublime joy for a bit. But I did do something about it, got out the house and did something fun.
I interacted with a bunch of people while I was out and chilling and all and by the time I had my food, I was, again, feeling ecstatic again.. my usual way of feeling and being.
There’s something I want to point out. That is, whenever I feel and get a dip in Happiness, right away I think to myself that I want to regain my happiness and try to look for the reasons that made me feel this dip and, very importantly, look for ways how I can get back to my happiness.
And this always works. Given that my compass is always pointing towards happiness and joy, I always find a way to get back on course.
And the compass, right now, is making sure to have me know that there ain’t nothing to worry about whatsoever and there is no need to do anything “productive” at this point.
At the end of the day, I did do some cool things like interact on social media as well as publishing the article right before this one about being a free thinker.
Anyway, things are awesome and off the hook. I’ve decided to take more baths because they are awesome and invigorating. I’ve even got a penis enlargement pump that I get to use while I’m taking a bath. So it’s a plus plus plus.
So, slowly but surely, I am building. I am building strength, resilience, sex-appeal, enlargement of penis and just great stuff. Cooking great meals, eating great, working out, keeping my place clean, going out and interacting with people. Life is actually so great and awesome and I am in a place of complete relaxation and enjoyment as I become also more and more natural whilst eliminating all toxic shit from my life, from toxic chemicals in my body to toxic people and relationships. Things are way dandy and oh so exciting.
You would think that I can just go on in order to start actually living a life of pure exhilaration and adventure next year or in two years… But who cares even if life begins after 50 years. Just as long as I’m happy and relaxed in the place that I am without a single worry or concern in my mind. Also knowing that I am getting better and better each day..
And I’ll get to the place where I have an extremely strong body and have sexy thoughts. That’s another thing that I want. I want to have sexy and attractive thoughts. So that what I’m thinking translates to conversations that are attractive and bring people closer to me as opposed to scaring them away. Because I want friends and I was sexy girlfriends. So what do I have to do to bring them into my life?
I know things are well and things are great and I am slowly achieving without any struggle or strife. Even building up my body and strength through a less common way. One where I am not exerting a great amount of force or causing damage to my muscles so they get bigger. A way that is painful. I am confident that I will succeed in this way because my life, my state and my well-being is a display, to me at least, that what I am doing and my philosophy is, actually sound. Because, at the end of the day, I am happy all the time and that’s the most important aspect of it all.
And I do believe and have faith that the outward and material representation of this happiness will fall into place and materialize. There’s no reason to rush things whatsoever.
At this point, my blog has just started to be uploaded in real time. So once I finish writing this it will be online and will not have a different date-stamp as with the previous posts.
So yeah, I’m living without a care in the world and I am reminding myself again until it becomes more and more hard-coded to live in such a way as to not have a single care in the world. To live happily, joyfully and blissfully. In the present moment, with minimal duties and obligations and even with the duties and obligations that I do have, that they are to be met with ease and joy and especially and most importantly, flow.
Best to You
Lui Bliss